I began recovery for sex addiction in June of 2014. For me it was an absolutely last resort before suicide. I said (to whom, I'm not sure - myself, The Universe, addiction, who knows) "I'll give it one meeting, and if it doesn't work, I'm out."
I went to my first 12 Step recovery meeting for sex addiction on Thursday June 5, 2014 and was SHOCKED to find there were others like me who had experienced the pain I'd been in.
What was even more surprising is that some of them actually seemed to be doing pretty well. Up till this point I didn't even know sex addiction was "a thing" or that there was another way of living.
Having been sexually abused starting at age 5, I'd been living a double life of secrecy, lies, manipulation and self-hatred for over 2 decades. I thought there was simply something inherently wrong with me. I was broken and convinced there was no fixing it. I've never been happier to be wrong in my whole life!
I'll be honest, I didn't get sober right after that first meeting.
I trudged along for months going from short lengths of sobriety to full blown relapses. In February 2015 I hit a new bottom that was scary enough for me to start taking this whole addiction thing seriously.
My illusion of "I got this" came crashing down.
I didn't have control of it and realized I couldn't do it on my own. Most importantly I no longer wanted to. So I sat down, shut up and started listening to what had worked for others.
This began on February 2, 2015, and I am grateful to be have been sexually sober since that day.
I have gained sobriety in many other areas as well, including alcohol, work, food, spending, codependency… pretty much whatever triggers dopamine.
Wanna know how? Keep reading!